Twenty-one hours had passed since we arrived at Valley View Hospital. Ophelia was in active labor. From my vantage point, I was able to see as soon as the baby’s head started to crown. I can’t even begin to describe that feeling. Finally, at age 36, to be a dad!
“Everything looks great!” said the doctor. “You’ll be holding a healthy little girl in just a few minutes.”
And then the antiseptic scent of the birthing room faded away, and I nearly gagged on the odor of spilled beer and stale cigarettes. A memory I had tucked away a long time ago came flooding back, so strong it was almost like living it again.
Before the wedding, before I even met Ophelia, back before mortgages and a master’s degree, four of us skipped a semester of college to see if we could make it as a band. Elephant Nightmares embarked on a January to June tour of run-down bars and cheap hotels. None of us had a clue how to go about getting discovered, and we weren’t even clearing enough to pay our rent. But we were young, on the road, and living our dreams. And we could tell the girls we met that we were musicians.
One night we were playing a gig on the wrong side of Chicago. Must’ve been about May because I was starting to see that this wasn’t likely to pan out for us, and the fun was wearing off in a hurry. We were grabbing some beers between sets when a clean-cut older man (who looked really out of place) pulled me aside and struck up a conversation with me. Said his name was Jim Gilroy and he was in the local music industry.
“I’ll be honest with you. I don’t think the whole band is going to make it, but you’ve got chops. If you want to come see me, I can set you up as one of our studio players, and we’ll see what develops from there. If you’re as good as I think you are, we’ll back you on a solo project in a year or two, or let you put your own band together.”
I was blown away. To a broke and road-weary twenty-year old, that sounded great.
“What’s the catch? Is this going to wind up costing me my eternal soul?”
He laughed. “No, nothing like that. Tell you what–I’ll settle for your firstborn.”
I smiled, and he handed me his business card, and then we shook hands. A month later I was singing backup and playing guitar for some other folks just starting their own careers. I did that for a year, and it was a great experience. I got listed on some recordings that did pretty well, met a lot of interesting people, and got to know the music scene in the Windy City. If I had stuck with it, maybe I could have made it to fame and glory. But my parents were pressuring me to finish college, and I wasn’t sure a musician’s life was really what I wanted after all. I remember the day I told Mr. Gilroy I was going back to school. He wished me well and said he hoped everything worked out for me. “It’s been good having you around, kid.”
As I was walking out the door he called out to me. “Hey, Kevin?”
“Yeah?”
“Don’t forget that you still owe me your firstborn!” We laughed and I waved good-bye.
So strange. Fifteen damn years ago we had a little running joke, and now I was at the hospital about to meet my firstborn and that’s what I’m thinking of in the last moments of the delivery.
Ophelia gave final push and an enormous scream. Dr. Ortiz showed me where to cut the cord, and the nurse took the baby to the infant station across the room. I kept waiting to hear her cry.
“Shouldn’t she be crying, Doctor?”
“Doctor?”
But there was only silence.
- Copyright: © 2007 C.K. Russell