Moon Dance
Fragmented moonlight filters through lace curtains as I drift into troubled sleep.
I dream.
Muscle spasms wrack my arms and legs as they flail wildly. Thick, coarse hair sprouts, creating an unbearable itching that makes me writhe like a man on fire. Pitiable cries howl from my elongating mouth as fingers convulse uncontrollably while nails grow thick, dark and long. Muscles ripple beneath overstretched skin as my legs grow longer and leaner. I grow claustrophobic and search frantically for an exit. A window explodes outward and I am free.
I sprint silently through Central Park, so swift and light on my padded feet it seems that I fly. With boundless energy I feel I can run forever. My body has shape-shifted and has never felt stronger.
Something runs ahead of me, bounding clumsily through the trees and underbrush, something panicked, screaming, stumbling. I slow my stride. The distinct odor of hot urine pervades the air. There is a tantalizing scent of fear. I taste the adrenalin sweating off my prey. My senses come alive like a sunburst in my brain. The scent of fear and taste of adrenalin alone are worth the hunt. They excite me.
The creature stumbles into an Osage orange tree, the thorns tearing into its arm, causing profuse bleeding and eliciting more cries. I stop momentarily to kiss the offending thorns with my tongue. The savory, hot, red liquid clinging to the thorns explodes upon my senses. Blood lust overwhelms me and my self control is lost upon the wind. I close the distance to my prey in the wink of an eye.
Eyes glazed with terror confront me. My ears drink in the shrieking screams that invigorate me. There are babbled pleadings, kicking feet, futile struggling before I deliver a crippling blow. Desperate whimpering moans issue from my quarry as I lick the salty, adrenalin-laced sweat from its face and neck before I give in to the hunger. My jaws open wide and the elongated canines do their work.
I savor ragged hunks of living flesh oozing a warm, sweet liquid that courses through the thick hair of my neck and chest. I appease my appetite, gorging to excess. What follows is an almost orgasmic sense of fulfillment as my hunger is satisfied.
Massive physical changes begin as claws recede and teeth shorten. Hair falls out in bunches until only bare skin remains. My body experiences painful contortions as muscles lose mass and bones shrink and reconfigure.
My heightened senses are dulled to near non-existence. I feel robbed, cheated, a mere human once again. The limitless energy reserve drains away and weariness overwhelms me. My eyes lose focus. The world blurs and I stumble through the dark, finding home by pure instinct.
Sleep consumes me for days. I awake to a repulsive sight–a huge splotch of blood and gore on the bedspread. I hurry to the bathroom mirror and behold in horror the dried blood and torn, soiled clothes. Bits of stringy meat stare accusingly from between my bloodied teeth. I wash the dried blood from my face and hands, brush teeth, floss, then toss my clothes and bedclothes into the washer. I guess this is the price for surviving a werewolf attack, which I did only last week. It was a most unsettling experience. I check the calendar. Twenty-six days before the next full moon. I lie on the couch rubbing my belly that bulges dramatically, like a woman seven months pregnant. A twinge of guilt presents itself then fades away. It’s not something I can control, not my fault. I close my eyes and try to forget but it’s hard to forget your first time.
I sleep without dreams.